I woke up early, my sleep got cut here and there because older siblings and their partners outside at 4-8am are loud. Then we had lunch outside this nearby place, the puppy was very cute. Sis also took the cat walking outside and made them meet my sister’s dog.

Then had a long nap. Woke up and pet the cat, sister’s bf says I look like the cat which made me feel a bit fluttery why do I have to make everything weird ok. Have to distance myself from them and listen to music by the shore. I’m sick of seeing my older siblings’ partners I’m sick of couples doing couple things in front of me

Then dinner outside, drunk guy passed out in the sand, loud speakers and disappointment radiating from my dad in front of me, comparing me to the little kids running around saying how having kids is no fun bc when they get older all they do is be sad. Older brother’s gf laughs and compares us to them too adding that we shouldn’t have grown up with ipads, which made me wanna throttle her a little bit. Having some misanthropic thoughts, it doesn’t feel good, but idk about the alternative

Communications a wound

Soon all this will be a memory